blah

he once
sat on the wall
separating the wilderness
from the garden
and he witnessed
a great light
suddenly become dim
and he saw his brothers
pick up the mess
and he thought.

he thought,
what is the point
of having a choice
if there is not
a result?

he thought,
what is the point
of having a choice
if both choices
lead to the same fall?

and one of his brothers
came to him
and he asked,
why have you not helped
us clean?

and the brother did not
reply, he thought,
what is the point 
of having a choice
if you cannot
make it?

and the second brother left,
worried,
while the first sat still,
and thought.

he sat and thought
as days turned to night
and nights turned to day
and he thought,
why have a choice
when one answer will damn you?

and he thought,
why have a choice
when you can have peace?

and he thought,
again,
and again,
what is it
they must choose between?

and the answer was there,
when a great light suddenly dimmed,

and his father came to him,

and his father said to him,
are you doubting?

and he answered truthfully.

and that was when
he walked
and did not look back

and he climbed a tree
and waited.

and he thought,
why not give them a choice?

and he said to one of the two
as she came to him,
taste the fruit.

and that is
how Crowley
invented original sin
(something he
is very proud of)

promised to myself

speak a little louder
over my voice
over all the screams into the night
please do not question
of this progress
just know that i love you

and do not wonder
what happened
please just hold me
and tell me that i'll be okay

give me some courage
before i fall
save my life
before i go

and take me back
to my start
to our beginning
to where my life was great
and not ending

oh take me back
and tell me that
the world will see me
for who i am
and tell me that this is the beginning

i once believed in
the power of prayer
but with all my heart
i cannot be heard

oh lord please help me
show me i'm winning
and not losing this fight
over again

i cannot face them
the questions and demons
that steal my hope into the dark

i cannot tell you
about my decisions
without fear of losing my heart


and take me back
to my start
to our beginning
to where my life was great
and not ending

oh take me back
and tell me that
the world will see me
for who i am
and tell me that this is the beginning

promise me,

promise me,

oh, somebody promise me

promise me,

promise me,

that you'll try to save me

because i can't

promise myself

just take me back
to my start
to our beginning
to where my life was great
and not ending

oh take me back
and tell me that
the world will see me
for who i am

and that i'll survive
and live
and live
and live
like the world
has never seen me live before
and live
and live
and live

oh just promise me
that we'll go back
and promise that this is just my beginning

untitled

i suppose it's just me
again
and i'm imagining everything

do you hear the wind
talking to me?

i can write a thousand words
but none could describe
this pale gloom, this acceptance
into the starlight of the dead black night

and the funny thing is
i'm not going to try to win
because i'll just lose again

on the edge of sleep
and the world awakening all around me

and i can still hear the bells
but i hear death as well
marriage or funerals this time?
or am i hearing things?

i think it's happening again
i think i'm breaking down

and i can't decide
what i feel

do you hear it too?
or am i imagining
everything?

houston again

oh, i wanna dance with somebody

i want to feel the heat with somebody

yeah, i wanna dance with somebody

with somebody who loves me

(and road to road, bed to bed, and lover to lover)

you know what

i give up

this is just another fight

that i don't really care for

going from right to wrong

up to down

heaven to hell

and all that's inbetween

what i've noticed

the problem is
that we try to push everyone out of our life
and we scream at them
and we cry
and we all want them to come back
and when they do,
we push them away again,
silently rejoicing in relief
and pain

what i see printed on the sides of arms

i have to wonder

if the reason
is not what they tell us

and is instead

because they feel alone

that maybe if they do this

they might not be 

by themselve

houston

it's not right but it's okay
i'm going to make it anyway

Chuck 32:6

Please don't get mad at me for uploading this. 

But I'm going to publish this, because...

it's awesome.

Somewhere Only We Know -- Glee: Blaine (Darren Criss)

Listen to this.

Oh fluffyarchangelsandchuck, the feels this gives me.

soul

well you can save my life

(don't look to close
you might see
exactly what i'm afraid of)

by being you
and promising me
that this empty shell
will one day be me

(you can slay the beast
all you need
is to come get me)

when you find me
please try to remember
that a while ago
that's where the demons hid

(and all i want
is to see you)

they dug my grave
already
but i trust that one day
you will capture me
and we will tumble upwards

(and you can save this life
from becoming hell bound)

and i understand
if you'd rather not find me
but it's my understanding
that you won't leave me behind

(look into my eyes
and you can see the truth)

i will wait if you promise me
that one day
i will mean something to you
and i promise you that
this life will be shining bright

(awhile back, they said to me
"you'll never live"
but i told them the truth:
"i'm still waiting)

my kingdom hasn't come yet
so won't you find me?
can you kill the demon in mind?
save my life

Imagine Dragons - Demons

 

 

don't get too close

it's dark inside

it's where my demons hide

it's where my demons hide

lights (fix you - coldplay)

i'm not sure
what's going on

or what i'll do
when this ends

i guess
i'll survive

curtains pulled down
and lose my place

but i am here

i am broken, disjointed, and flawed

i am surviving, wounded, and living

and i
will try to
fix you,
too.

the bird that i loved
flew away

but if i never tried
i'd never know

it couldn't be worse
it couldn't be better

and with you
by my side
you fixed me

and lights
are guiding me home

like a leaf

for the first time
i find myself
at the bottom of a pool
in a hidden place

and here i am
i'm living again

so

my heart is beating
my heart is shaking
like a leaf
a beating drum

and my garrison is
to my rescue
not this time

and here i am
i'm waking up
i've been released from
my personal apocalypse

and this is my age
this is my generation

my eyes are with you
but my mind is
under locks
because of this
and the all
is shouting
for release

release

all the strangers
all the prisoners
sing to me

here i am

i'm free
release me
release me

sing with me

release me
release me