the big bang

colors that have never existed

flew from my mind

they danced between the stars

and filled my lungs

each color was an animal

wild, free, and live

it kissed upon my brow

promised to never leave

such ineffable fury

i wanted everyone to end

such ineffable beauty

i never wanted it like this

everything was ending at once

but just beginning to breathe

it was day and night,

winter, summer, spring, and fall

and in the aftermath

i was left feeling nothing

     at all.

help sos

i wish it'd all just leave

i want it all to stop

why doesn't everyone just think

and, for once, just shut up.



i wouldn't mind just one

i wouldn't mind just two

but, no, it can't be done

...surely no one misses the few.



i like to imagine how i'd do it

if i'd smile, cry, or even laugh...

in fact, i'm tempted to try it...

but these are the thoughts of a psychopath.

dedicated for cheryll

this whole time
we were both singing the same song
hiding behind the same mask
but never stopped to notice


i wrote a song for you
but nothing could ever compare

darling, you're beautiful
you're perfect
you're smart
you're witty
and you'll always make a mark
in everyone's heart

i love you
never will i not

and i hope you see this soon

i hope you know me true

angels on high, ode to you

i once had a friend who knew where he stood

said he knew the difference between bad and good

and we all knew exactly when he fell

lost when he laid a hand on you in hell