i can breathe

feeling

what is it?

hopeless, not anymore
because i know

i can do this.
i can get through this.

even though everything is dying
in front of my eyes
and you know?
sometimes they come back to life

just look at me
see?
now
i can breathe.

even though it hurts
i can do this
and all these people
don't really know me

and even if they do
do they understand
the causes of my blue lips
and the stillness of my heart?

and only God could ever tell
when i wasn't well
and there were so many times
when i felt

like i was dying
all over again
like i couldn't breathe
all over again
like i was slipping down
all over again

but now?
the difference nobody can see
but i can

i can breathe